...

... thats how iam feelign right now.

these few days have been a a roller coaster. how cliche.

packing and transferring and now settling in.

last day at the old house was terrible. bad way of saying goodbye.

i miss my mom and even though my sis is in singapore i haven heard from here.

i feel so alone seriously.

thats me now at h house just after a shower. i cant sleep.

and that me again... duh last day of packing in my old room. it feels weird walking back to h house seeing my old house with the lights on but knowing that someone else is staying there now and not my mom forgetting to switch off the lights. :(

i feel like bummer. i dont want to be like this but my mind is everywhere and i cant focus.

sigh. i need my rock. i really do miss my rock.

morning.

yesterday my boxes came.

feeling like packing my books.

i tried making cheese omelet. i didnt know which was melted cheese and which is the egg thats not cooked yet.

but it didnt taste that bad just that mine didnt look as nice. fail!

i cant make it as good. booooooo.....

me and my silly cravings.

....

i got too many things to think abt iam surprised iam still able to walk and not collapse under the continuos thoughts over the diff matter.

-job

-place to stay

-packing

-budgeting for new house(reno/furnishing/1st month stuff)

-bills

-house agent is taking forever

-portfolio/cv/cl

-websites

damns. iam tired already.

Selamat Hari Raya!

well sounds good rite but this year is even worse than last year.

aint doing much especially when iam moving house. my room is still in a mess.

my house is just messy.

oh wells.

i think its just worse as u grow older... like not really into the spirit anymore.

but iam still wearing my baju kurong with my CDG pants. hahaha abit on the edge.

well the rest of you will have a long holiday. so have fun.

:(

iam cleaning my room and packing and i finally have to throw away the last heart shape cookie.

ive ate every last one and kept the last piece. its starting to give off a yellowy liquid. i cant bear to throw it away.

i hate this. i was hoping the ziplock would keep it safe from decomposition. if only things were that easy.

...

do i worry to much?

i cant help it.. its been so long that its second nature sometimes.

it cant be a bad thing rite?

argh.... silly me.