i am tired.
how come everywhere i go it seems like ppl are asking me to be a full timer?so b is asking me to join the team iam not sure if i should hmm. but thats a more stable pay.

iam just scared cause i get bored easily.

sigh...

so many things in my head.

i flip my hair back and forth..(love that song)

oh jas and kak dos came to visit me at work for a while. funny day.

i dunno i think iam hanging out with a diff group of ppl. for the better i hope.

i dont know. iam easily accepting of ppl till i dont really see their true characters at times.

life is funny. ive done things ive regret and it really cost me alot. i dont know if ive changed but i hope i have and i hope its for the better. iam trying i guess. and i think i should change the ppl i surround myself with first.

i want to do multiple things. but this part time job of mine is taking tons of time.

ive met some very nice ppl through it though.

lets see... ive done shows for...

roberto cavalli, hugo, ben wu( met that eye lashes girl), gstar, tribeca, galliano,.. tons and ive done the visual merchandising for DKNY and Gstar too.

great experience... and great discounts along the way.

but this is still something iam doing just to get experience. iam not gonna forget design.

iam not giving up. workign here has kept me occupied and not think abt the house situation as much.

thinking what to get too. not for me though.

i typed some things but erased it. i dont think i can say it.

why why why must things be like this.

either this or that. its that simple.. but its not.

somebody told me today, if something like that happens its either your still in it or you were just friends from the very beginning. is it true?

is it supposed to be this way?

maybe that bunny is still in me. just that the bunny has more wrinkles now.

i still have hope?

i still have hope.