i stumbled upon a song tonight.

kinda made me smile.. all i had to do was close my eyes.

...i need you to believe that the dark times will fade...

iam so funny sometimes.

sadly the song is only a few mins.

bad night y'all..
this is the problem when iam back home so early... i still have the energy to get upset.
i need to be overworked so when i get back i just pass out.

bad night bad night.

maybe iam destined to be just a secret stalker.

always just a few steps behind but never side by side.

holding on to something i havent got.

wish it wasnt so.

you mean more to me than youll ever know.

even brighter than the moon.

am just not good at this anymore and i kinda broke my own heart.

....
whats wrong herman...

if i keep telling myself i cant do this than why am i still lingering? ive been lingering since the day i left. i keep thinking it will be the same.

i keep hoping to be pampered everytime but i know it has never happened.. yet i keep trying.. maybe one day.

where did you go.

argh.... i think iam just hoping for a stoopid dream to come true.

...

that message did it.

but i still believe. why?

its hard eh?

i tried moving on but all i can think abt was still you. thats why i couldnt carry on.

now youve changed and iam stuck in limbo.

i need some fireworks to shoot out of my chest.

fuck this. iam off.