hari raya this yr is the first one that iam celebrating alone... well i kinda feel alone.

moms not here, sis not here, grandma not here and last yr it was still with you. i think? yes yes.

oh wells.

heard your doing good. so thats good.

i think iam doing ok. ITHINK.

haha.

D told me today: You will never move on.. youll never get over it.. but you just carry on.

what i had was love.

he said if it was real love, no matter how long time goes by.. u will still think abt it from time to time.. maybe when u lie down and u just have that memory.

its good enough to know that youve made an impact in that persons life for him or her to think abt you.

argh.. annoyed and upset...

iam just angers and bitters.

iam not happy. not one bit!

can u break that promise?

break ups are complicated.

i feel bad. jas saw you that night and she told me after how she felt like crying when she hugged you. maybe partly cause she was abit high and mostly cause she really misses you. what can i do but to just keep quiet. i told her before how i got nothing against her meeting you or whatever but i guess she just feels weird. oh wells.

anyways apart from that iam just as usual not happy. not really happy happy.

i think iam still lost... i i feel liek time is slipping away... and iam not making full use of it.

hope your doing good at least... thats all i can wish for u now.

oh wells.. these thoughts to myself.