under this calm exterior, iam screaming.

if you were to say your happy without me, i wont say anything anymore

i guess i still love you.

i was stoopid.

bye.

i wish u were here.

i cant say my feelings to anyone so iam just gonna babble to myself here to make myself feel better.

i guess.. hmm... ill think of you tonight.

i really need to learn to let go.

this afternoon i fell asleep maybe cause i was too tired...

theres a reason why i feel like sleeping in the afternoon is weird,

i dreamt of us.... argh.

when will it end..

my mind cannot register issit?!

fail.

these kinda moments are the most dangerous.

i feel like picking up the phone and just calling you. but i know u wont answer me anymore.

and i know it wouldnt be fair so i shouldnt.

iam so upset. i really wish everything would just stop!

today suck. to bad i cant whine to anyone.

sigh.

is it wrong for me to still miss u?

i still keep thinking of the same old things..

maybe iam just being emo right now.