happy bday you.

i guess an sms would just irritate you. hah.

the people i miss in my life.

i always wonder what everyone i miss is doing right at this point in time.

like my dad, i dont hate him anymore i think i grew out of it. i just hope his doing well and taking care of himself. thats all i ask... for his case he cant expect me to have a father son relationship anymore but he is my father and i wish him well.

ive never been direct to a person.

i just got a problem of telling someone what iam thinking.

i rather keep shut. maybe thats one of the problems.

iam so tired iam not even smiling no more.

go to work come back still do my work.. try and rush my freelance work..

all day think about money, trying not to get nagged at, thinking what should i pay for, trying to rush my artworks, thinking how to do it.

can i just run to a deserted cave and stay there?

sigh.

hmm ive got nothing else on my mind except the same old things.

even after its been this long.

i always wonder if u still think of me like how i keep thinking of you.

its weird. and its seeping into my dreams.