need the motivation...

i just had pasta for dinner and i promise myself not to take a bite out of anything else for the rest of the night, before i go to bed(oh god help me)... and maybe a few sit ups and push ups too( i hope). gee, i dont know why iam so lazy sometimes.. i know iam not fat but i can feel it like piling up in me.. gross!! and i want to look good before i go to school.. since being in an arts college is all abt looking good ppl!!.. well i thought that i would never start a blog since i preferred the pen and paper type.. which reminds me, i have to write in there too tonight. its becoming like such a chore..argh!.. but after i write it, i like going through the pages and reading some of the past entries and laugh myself silly! i did try to start blogging on other sites but got lazy and decided to delete my accounts.. oh well.
my parents just came back from malaysia today after such a long time.. i was starting to think that my mom and the a**hole(stepdad) was in an accident or something. i know i sound evil but sometimes i wish my stepdad just die or something!.. and my mom is not really doing that good of a job of being a good mom at the moment.. thank god i have my sister(iam just so close to her). i tell her about everything.. well almost everything :p did i mention she saved my life?! i nearly drowned once in a hotel swimming pool and no one came to save me.. thank god my sis already learned the life saving course.. the last thing i remembered was seeing and hearing my mom running and screaming at the edge of the pool for someone to save me... no one actually bothered! what a bunch of a**holes. if i died ill hunt all of them! i owe my life to my sis... ill write another entry soon.. maybe tonight or something.. cya..for now.