sheesh..

(this is actually written on August 12)
the only reason why iam doing this is because some ppl i know have been pestering me to write a blog so they can 'kapo' and burry their nose a little deeper in my life... thats one reason.. another is bcos i havent been doing much writing on my 'pen and paper' type of journal either. since school started, i havent really had the mood for anything.. gosh. dont get me wrong, school is a blast(even though one by one, the people in my close group of frens is falling out like flies)... but the work load is killing me! deadlines after deadlines.. its like my mind is having a mental diarreorea.. non stop worry of deadlines. and the situation at home issint helping me either...argh.. why cant 'he' just die? his distroying me!!... i swear, sometimes i feel that iam going insane... and my real dad is not much help at the moment either.. keep pestering me to call my stepmom in johor abt how we( my dad, sis and me) are going to bring his daughter, my step-sister, out this month.. i mean.. i got other things to worry abt and iam in no mood to call someone i dont even know!.. so when my dad ask me if i called, i usually make up excuses like shes not in or something like that. i mean its kinda cool to think abt it.. step brothers and sisters in the phillipines.. another one in johor...but its kinda weird for me. i mean the only reason why i even bother with my dad is because he gives me money... i know i may sound like a bastard but after 10 yrs of silence, he suddenly pops back in my life? i mean not really father material is he... i have this feeling that he realises his getting old and just in case anything happens, he wants us to take care of him.. SHEESH!
MY LIFE IS LIKE A SOAP OPERA!!!!... hahaha.i shall skip the personal, details.. iam not in the mood to remember my childhood anytime soon. Today school was not that bad.. the normal stuff happened.. saran cried (she lost her money.. kinda shocking if u asked me) gemma went all over the place (she lost her phone.. a week after i lost mine in the same class!.. i so think its someone from our class whos been stealing all the stuff.. bastard!) what abt me u ask? well.. i was minding my own busniess, tryign to make everyone happy...whatever. well after school.. i didnt know where to go cause i didnt want to go home and see my stepdad so i hung around.. here and there and then headed back to yishun to teach tution to this pri 5 girl. ( she irritates the life out of me..its liek she know bonkers!) on the walk back home, i saw a dead rat on the road with its head torn off to god knows where. the blood was like... argh!.looking on the brightside, it was actually the highlight of my day.. i mean, how often do u see a big fat rat with its head torn off?.. ahaha.. it did made me wiggle with disgust though.