this will be long...

today wasnt that exciting.. just had to visit my grandmom... sometimes when i see her.. i feel kinda guilty cause i find that iam not that close to her anymore.when i was young, i use to love the way she even smells.. that was how close i was to her. now i just dont know what i can say to her. is that just part of growing up? now her legs are giving her a hard time. i guess maybe she feels lonely cause all her kids and grandchildren arent visiting her as often and she dosent get to go out so often either. i love her but i cant say it... its the same case towards my mom. i remember the days when i was a kid, i use to sit with her and hold her hand when we go out.. she told me that she dont mind cause she knows i wont do it when iam older.. i told her it issint true and that ill always hold her hand... i was wrong. what make adults say 'i still love u' so hard?
well anyway.. yesterday was a total dead day for me... my body was aching! my head was still slightly spinny... i took a whole day to totally recover from all the booze. ..thats right people..step right up.. breaking news!.. herman went drinking!.. it was my first time and let me tell u.. what an experience it was! first of all i just want to say.. even though it gave me pain all over my body, iam not regretting it one bit... secondly its good to have your close,good frens around cause at least theres someone to watch over u (thanks guys!) and finally i think its best to get drunk for the fisrt time at somebody's house cause its much safer than in some club where u can like get punched..hahaha.
well i brought my own booze to the party. a whole big bottle of asbolute vodka,vanilla, thanks sis(she has a stash under her bed). we went to watch some horror films.. sean was so over reactive... never seen the feminine side of her b4.. hehehe. we had some alcohol then .. they mixed stuff.. some tasted bad.. some tasted sweet... oh well i just swallowed. it was only when i entered the room then the real stuff happened. i had a whole container of vodka mixed with stuff.. then they had whiskey cause they were playing some poker game so everytime they werent touching it.. ill ask for a sip. the vodkadidnt taste that nice.. the whiskey was even worse! it just burns... i was to crazy as comapred to my frens though. only me, corrine, siaojess, andrew(the cute butch), and mr X was in the room getting really drunk. we were liek jumping and dancing.. not that raunchy at first.. but it got there.
they even pretended they were in some band.. i was just snapping pictures... i came out every so often to check out what the rest of the people in teh living room was doing. i dont feel it but i think they noticed i was getting high...hahaha.. damn what a feeling! then clothes started to come off.. mr x and jess started taking off their shirts. corrine asked us if we mind her taking of hers.. at least she was polite and was wearing a sports bra underneath... hehehe. they were smoking and i think it added to the heat in the room. we finished the whiskey... corrine got to high i think she went behind the curtains with Mr X then she came out and laid beside me.. maybe it was my eyes playing tricks on me but i think i saw her kissing jess i was like only beside her.. my face was like half beside her..i mean that guy has a gf and your doing that to him..? i think he was to drunk to.then then suddenly the bedroom door opened and the rest saw us.. i was lying at the side of the bed... ppl were without their clothes off.. what do u think they taught? so since they knew i was a first timer.. they asked me out and sat everyone out in the living room. i flanked on the armchair.. the rest on teh floor.. they keep saying i was cute but i myself have no idea what i did...golly! i had like a thought that the feeling would die off so i asked for more... thankfully jess was kind enough to give me the last couple of sips from the vodka. when we went back to the room, i dint know where we got the gin when i thought nothing was left. so i asked for some.. sean said this would be my last one.. i didt even realise i finished the whole galss! but after that i was gone.. i couldnt even walk!.. great. but i must say thank you to Mr X who kept asking me if i needed water or anything when i was lying on the armchair after everything.. to stone to talk back. jess for half-carrying me to the bathroom and waiting for me to be done.. hahaha.. damn his a great guy. sean and eugene didnt drink so they really just sat beside me and looked after me. iam so thankfull i met them.
well the day came to fast abd everythign had to end.. i was kinda dissapointed though.. we woke up so late... everyone was just lyign all over the house! --->
i couldnt think so after that i just took a cab home..
ill post the other pics in another entry.