sick

yups.. thats right.. iam sick. puked a couple of times too... y? not sure myself.. not as if i drank or anything. my tummy felt so bloated.. couldnt even sleep properly.
my draft essay is due tomorrow.. should i go to school? its a great chance for me to skip class and finish the project thats due on thursday.
yesterday night was in some cases a first of first for me.
spontanious action..
impulse thinking..
yup yup.
well better try and do abit of my essay.... grrr..
herms.
pictures taken on the day of the bbq...

its another monday for me.. just cleaned my room.. god it was so messy! there was not even a proper square of clear space in my room. well i finally cleared the stuff and even changed my sheets.. when i clean, i really clean. i wonder how long before it starts all over.. maybe 2 days? hahahaha.
anyhoo. yesterday went to pasir ris for my uncles bbq. mom got oysters ... i had like 4?god. i think having oysters is like having alcohol. i wanted to slap the taxi driver on the way home.. he was so jerky! i wanted to puke.. i literally had my hand over my mouth. i felt drowsy.. and not to mention something else. it was so creamy? buttery?
had liek pizza and chicken and stuff.. the normal bbq food.
my uncle lived near the beach.. i fell asleep while the rest went to beach.. great huh.
well just to make it clear to that special someone, i wanted to go out and have ice cream or whatever ..just to see u but i couldnt get out.. by the time i could, u had to go somewhere already... well just hope your having fun collecting money now.
i got loads of work to finish.. grrr..aiyah whatever!
herms.

holidays

well first of all i didnt know if today was a half day or not.. and i didnt really care. when my interior class ended at 12, off i went! no way i am gonna go for fashion class(if there was). the last time i went, i nearly drooled! and i dont even drool when i sleep on my bed!.. that was how boring it was i guess. anyhoo.. today interior was not much fun.. i was appointed leader of the group for the upcoming project. the lecturer just us to do research ..then when we came, he told us to go buy mounting board and paste pics and present. liek wth.. we dont even have the proper stuff to show him. his irritating me even more everytime i see him.
these are the reasons why i dont really like him 1) he cant remember names.. i hate this abt him
2) he dosent explain clearly what the hell
he wants..
3)he rushes with his work.. which means we
have to rush too.
4)he has a way to make u feel inferior when u are presenting eg. walk out just to throw his rubbish.. leaving us to think liek our work sucked big time.
5) he made a girl cry once i heard in the other class with his comments.his abit like simon cowel(hell with the spelling)
6) interior is confusing!
and not to mention i got tons of other homework to do.. which is all due next week! mother****
and i guess why i am not really pleased is cause i cant even meet up with U.
oh yes i saw nurul today.. gosh shes gorgeous.. i cant deny it... why why why...haiz. nvm iam happy...
happy chinese new yr folks!
herman.

its back.

well the stress is back.. thanks school.. sheesh. so many projects.. so little time. interior class is killing me. i dont know why his rushing all the work. how can i design and make a 3d room which represents me in a week?! i dont like thinking so much so what do i do? i zone out.
well anyway besides that i guess everything else is the same... see iam zoning out right now. just sitting here and staring blankly at the screen waiting for it to be 7.30 so i can go to school. i think i got ready to fast. i dont really care what i wear to school anymore...whatever.

gluttony

food food food.. i wonder how i would look like when i finally turn fat. i eat to much at night..god! iam not hungry yet i stuff my face with everything thats left on the kitchen table. y? i dont know. i will stop only when my tummy is at the brink of exploding. i guess it wont take long to feel like a lump. after i put down the phone with that special someone, i ate.. and ate.. and ate.
school work is sooo not on my mind. even thinking what to wear for school is pissing me off! god damn it!.i want to see my darling. i miss my darling. i want to sit beside my darling. and just look.. hoping my darling would understand me. whats going on? i have no clue. iam afraid.. is it to fast? hope youll be with me.. and understand me more. i dont say what i exactly feel liek telling u, so u just carry on with what u want to say. i keep shut. sometimes i just want u to stop talking and just understand me.. pls. this life of mine is hard as it is... and i dont need our secret life to make it worst.. just embrace.. wont u?
herman.

a night to remember.

keeping my posts short nowdays. don really want to reveal to much. i guess at this point except for that special someone, only one of my close fren knows.
had a wonderful night. explosion of emotions. ended quite abrubtly.. haiz.. thanks alot lady.. not!
a night to remeber.. definately. be mine wont u?
herman

couldnt resist

well didnt go home again. well not as if i do it that often rite? had a great time... wonderful time last night. fantastic. the smell, the face, the smile. how lucky am i? very... and iam thankful for that.
herman.

iam longing for more

spent the whole night out. parents away.. reason not to go home. had the best night.. even though nothing much was done. a feeling i havent had in the longest time.. i loved it. kept thinkign abt it actually.
school started..the normal.
thinking abt it again.. the rain.. the walks.