gluttony

food food food.. i wonder how i would look like when i finally turn fat. i eat to much at night..god! iam not hungry yet i stuff my face with everything thats left on the kitchen table. y? i dont know. i will stop only when my tummy is at the brink of exploding. i guess it wont take long to feel like a lump. after i put down the phone with that special someone, i ate.. and ate.. and ate.
school work is sooo not on my mind. even thinking what to wear for school is pissing me off! god damn it!.i want to see my darling. i miss my darling. i want to sit beside my darling. and just look.. hoping my darling would understand me. whats going on? i have no clue. iam afraid.. is it to fast? hope youll be with me.. and understand me more. i dont say what i exactly feel liek telling u, so u just carry on with what u want to say. i keep shut. sometimes i just want u to stop talking and just understand me.. pls. this life of mine is hard as it is... and i dont need our secret life to make it worst.. just embrace.. wont u?
herman.