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i feel blank. iam feeling empty...empty of emotions..thoughts. i think i am an empty vessel at the moment. iam walking.. breathing.. eating.. talking..interacting.. but i feel lost. i have been feeling like this for some time actually.
i feel liek theres something wrapping me.. making me unable to feel certain of myself.. i cant feel myself 100%.
friends are falling apart..i guess its work.. but its the only place and time we see each other.
iam insecure of what i want iam insecure even with myself.. where will i be in 10 yrs?

tonight U will return.
i re-read your message whenever no one was there to entertain me... it felt so good.

live a life of lies...tell the lies your going to have to live in..just to make this story of mine sound less pathetic...less diff..more accepting..but i guess its gonna burst out sooner or later.

never good at talkign about this rejected artwork... keeping most inside..keeping it fake.
herms.