its my bday and ill do what i want to... hopefully.

well.. a few hours from now and it will be my bday! iam not that excited abt it.. i dont know why.. just another yr i guess.. but still.. i made a cake for myself :)

lets see what i can do when iam 18....

1) watch M18 movies (legally)

2) have sex (whenever.. well u dont have to be 18 anyway)

3) buy booze/ ciggs

4) club .. whatever else.

but the thing is... i want to be 18 and stay there. iam already feeling abit scared with the idea of getting old. i told my sis.. she said its the way of life.. still it scares me.

where will i be when iam old? seeing those sick/limping/ battered old folks in public issint helping me either.. i really really am scared of getting old. gosh i know this might sound silly to u.. but it kinda freaks me out.

well anyhoo i got fashion to do.. i just want to finish as much as i can.. i got other stuff to do.. kinda sad when u think abt it, its my bday and i got school work thats due.. stress!

my grandmom told me to go her house.. she said she will cook somethign special for me too.. sweet huh... well back to my damn school work!

herms.