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i was so eager to blog...but everytime i sit here staring at this screen i go blank.

well firstly, just wanted to say i had fun with u lot that day.. we sure ate alot..well kinda.. hope everything goes well for u kanesh...dont stress your self out to much mr darren. everything will fall in place.. well thats what i believe.
i had "yong tau fu?' for dinner.. actually i was not up for it but i noticed my pri school friend was working there.. i guess i was just curious to see if he knew who i was. i made my order as per normal. he didnt say anything, but his eyes did... i could clearly tell he knew me from the way he looked even though it was just for a second. i took my food and left. strange how ppl u use to know become strangers.

i am like 2hrs late in saying that its been 5 months since the day i saw u... it has to mean something... i wont bother saying it again..sadly

tonight seemed so still... saw the moon shinning brightly in the clear night sky before i boarded the bus.pure beauty. how often do people actually take the time to see the good things in life everyday?iam trying to do so.. see the good things every day .. there must be at least one.
i miss star gazing... makes u feel small... pathetically small.. it stirkes an eagernees in u to seek something more... it makes me feel my aim for material wealth dosent really matter.. like thats not all that important anymore.

collective concious thinking... iam kinda intrigued by it. thanks to mr k.

saw a documentary on astroids... we are doomed if one decides to hit us tomorrow. we are so not prepared.. actually we are not really prepared for anything. 75% of all living things will perish if a relatively sized on hits.. scary huh... they say the bird flu will kill 1/2 to 3/4 of the world's population when it breaks out... what are your chances of surviving?

i couldnt control myself in the bus.. i was just feeling so sad suddenly.. saw someone who reminded me of a person whos suppose to be there for me.. but he made to many bad judgements. eventhough he realised what he did, i think its kinda to late now. totally dissconnected.

but apart from that.. saw u sleeping..your head propped against the pane of glass which was nearly covered with marks and prints of other past passengers.. your head was bobbing... bet you were aching.it was as if the word 'tired' was radiating from u..i felt it.its sad how badly i was so close yet so far. a shoulder of comfort to lean on yet it seems impossible for fear of going against the idea of being ideal and discreet.

gosh iam being so random... i dont know.
herms.