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omg i dont know... i dont know ..
iam forced to continue this absense.
has it become a one way road?
i know its not totally true.
how can it be when i still believe in it so.
maybe iam just afraid of the outcome of it
cause i already know what would happen if it was to be allowed.
how can i bear to loose soemthing so dear.
yet there is no response to dear when i say it so.
i am in desperate need to hold the hand
this terrible bad feeling is bringing me to tears
the reasons for these though are just not reasons enough.