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ive got quite a number of things in my head at the moment.
so many things to settle.. so many things to get done.
i miss the smell.. i want to be able to smell and remember
busy i suppose.. ive made time.. fit me in the schedule.. pls?
maybe its because of this ive taken time from another.
what do i want at the end? i want the one iam used to now. but its kinda hard to get these days.
ive lost weight.. possibly the weight of a bag of rice.
i didnt mean to really work to loose it. that amount kinda slipped off before i realised it. maybe i secretly wish it would.. and it did. maybe more will drop off.. who knows. at least it wont give people the chance to say that iam F**
maybe i can get more attention possibly soemthing more if iam thinner for someone..
maybe i didnt realise it but maybe i did it for a deeper reason... iam not sure but i really didnt realise i lost that much... oh wells.. no harm done. :)
all i want to do these days is sleep. i dont want to be awake.. iam so dissapointed when i have to wake up.
i miss the lime green so badly.. haiz.