hi again.

the last post i posted was 2007. can u believe how time flies and how old ive gotten since then? how much has come and gone my way... to much to say in a single post.
i guess it has given me lessons and realizations.
how much have i changed? i know i have.. ive been told too many times.
i dont know what made me come back here.
i guess there is a certain comfort in this quiet yet too public corner of cyber space that pour my random thoughts.
its nearly 4 am and i still cant get to bed.
thinking of soo many things. i feel like pasing out. my mind is so tired.
let me just give a brief intro to my head.

pills, love, past present future, friends, alcohol, army, therapy, mistake, rushed, sex, longing, clothes, money, job, pictures, love always, momentum, ciggs, kiss, alcohol, conversations, runaway, travel, sky, art, blood...
well those are just some stuff thats going in my head.

its enough to kill me. i think iam going crazy.