if u had a choice, would you leave with me?

why do i feel unsatisfied with life? i still feel like doing something bigger.

hmmm maybe i just need to take a break and get out soon.

suddenly i feel so sad.

i miss my mom, i miss my sis.

its difficult for me to visit both of them now. i got no time and not much money to actually go and visit them.

even though times were hard back then, i miss when it was just the 3 of us.

i know its hard for my mom.. to go through so much to bring us up just to see us be so far from her when we are older.

maybe its not that bad that i am what i am. i wont have kids to part with... to learn to let go.

maybe learning to let go is one thing i have to learn... just let go and wish the best for the person.

"...it’s heart-warming to see him there waiting for me, looking like a lost penguin. I always look forward to running towards him and get that first big, embrace. My whole world stops. Everything else is rendered null and void.There’s only one word to describe the feeling. It’s magical."

i read that off somewhere. it was true long ago for me too.

how long has it been since its been over?

why issit that i still think abt you every single day?

sigh.

maybe i need to grow some balls.