i got tons of things to clear out and hopefully next month ill be better at budgeting.

i still cant find a place to stay yet.. NC been giving me tips but i have some fears abt living alone, strangers are totally out of the question. i know i keep repeating but yes my cousin needs his space.

ive been sleeping on the sofa every night staring out of the window for months now. i dont want to sleep inside even though its my bed his sleeping on knowing giving him space at night is the least i can do and i kinda found comfort sleeping in the living room alone in the dark.. like its my space? i know it sounds silly but yeah haha.

im going broke even before the month is ending, doctor bill ( i know she made it cheaper for me but its still expensive!) giving money to my grandmom, hp bill, transport, food, dinners/presents i have to go to or pay for even though i know i cant pay for right now..oh well.

which reminds me i hope his ok though... heard abt the minor op. i actually called my mom to ask her what could it possibly be. his so fragile.. as if enzymea wasnt bad enough.. poor boy.

oh man herman.. when are u gonna get over this. hoping and being stagnant wont do u good.

argh i know they say the person im in love with now is not the same person as when i knew long ago but the person still looks the same. its still that person. yeah. hmm ohk enough rambling for now on my off day.