continuation...

well actually more happened just that i cant really say what.
erm corrine puked halfway all over the bathroom... we broke plenty of glass items too.. hahaha.
erm i got scared when Mr X started mumbling abt.. "iam going to kill all of u".. "give me a fucking knife" and i was like the only one in the room sitting on the chair with my neck sticking out... as if iam inviting him to..hahaha.. thank god its over.
corrine was nice enough to take off my socks for me to when i was sitting on the bed half awake... hahaha.
well i couldnt talk or move much much i could still make out some of the stuff they said.. sean was like" iam really worried for him".. hahaha.. the rest was like a big mess for me.
i wonder how corrines parents would be like when they came home from jakarta one day early and see all of us liek that... but one thing for sure.. i stank when i got home!

pics!

nothing to say at all...hhmmm
the booze starting to kick in eh..
Mr X getting flipped on the bed.. thank god thats all those drunks did to each other
sean and corrine...

this will be long...

today wasnt that exciting.. just had to visit my grandmom... sometimes when i see her.. i feel kinda guilty cause i find that iam not that close to her anymore.when i was young, i use to love the way she even smells.. that was how close i was to her. now i just dont know what i can say to her. is that just part of growing up? now her legs are giving her a hard time. i guess maybe she feels lonely cause all her kids and grandchildren arent visiting her as often and she dosent get to go out so often either. i love her but i cant say it... its the same case towards my mom. i remember the days when i was a kid, i use to sit with her and hold her hand when we go out.. she told me that she dont mind cause she knows i wont do it when iam older.. i told her it issint true and that ill always hold her hand... i was wrong. what make adults say 'i still love u' so hard?
well anyway.. yesterday was a total dead day for me... my body was aching! my head was still slightly spinny... i took a whole day to totally recover from all the booze. ..thats right people..step right up.. breaking news!.. herman went drinking!.. it was my first time and let me tell u.. what an experience it was! first of all i just want to say.. even though it gave me pain all over my body, iam not regretting it one bit... secondly its good to have your close,good frens around cause at least theres someone to watch over u (thanks guys!) and finally i think its best to get drunk for the fisrt time at somebody's house cause its much safer than in some club where u can like get punched..hahaha.
well i brought my own booze to the party. a whole big bottle of asbolute vodka,vanilla, thanks sis(she has a stash under her bed). we went to watch some horror films.. sean was so over reactive... never seen the feminine side of her b4.. hehehe. we had some alcohol then .. they mixed stuff.. some tasted bad.. some tasted sweet... oh well i just swallowed. it was only when i entered the room then the real stuff happened. i had a whole container of vodka mixed with stuff.. then they had whiskey cause they were playing some poker game so everytime they werent touching it.. ill ask for a sip. the vodkadidnt taste that nice.. the whiskey was even worse! it just burns... i was to crazy as comapred to my frens though. only me, corrine, siaojess, andrew(the cute butch), and mr X was in the room getting really drunk. we were liek jumping and dancing.. not that raunchy at first.. but it got there.
they even pretended they were in some band.. i was just snapping pictures... i came out every so often to check out what the rest of the people in teh living room was doing. i dont feel it but i think they noticed i was getting high...hahaha.. damn what a feeling! then clothes started to come off.. mr x and jess started taking off their shirts. corrine asked us if we mind her taking of hers.. at least she was polite and was wearing a sports bra underneath... hehehe. they were smoking and i think it added to the heat in the room. we finished the whiskey... corrine got to high i think she went behind the curtains with Mr X then she came out and laid beside me.. maybe it was my eyes playing tricks on me but i think i saw her kissing jess i was like only beside her.. my face was like half beside her..i mean that guy has a gf and your doing that to him..? i think he was to drunk to.then then suddenly the bedroom door opened and the rest saw us.. i was lying at the side of the bed... ppl were without their clothes off.. what do u think they taught? so since they knew i was a first timer.. they asked me out and sat everyone out in the living room. i flanked on the armchair.. the rest on teh floor.. they keep saying i was cute but i myself have no idea what i did...golly! i had like a thought that the feeling would die off so i asked for more... thankfully jess was kind enough to give me the last couple of sips from the vodka. when we went back to the room, i dint know where we got the gin when i thought nothing was left. so i asked for some.. sean said this would be my last one.. i didt even realise i finished the whole galss! but after that i was gone.. i couldnt even walk!.. great. but i must say thank you to Mr X who kept asking me if i needed water or anything when i was lying on the armchair after everything.. to stone to talk back. jess for half-carrying me to the bathroom and waiting for me to be done.. hahaha.. damn his a great guy. sean and eugene didnt drink so they really just sat beside me and looked after me. iam so thankfull i met them.
well the day came to fast abd everythign had to end.. i was kinda dissapointed though.. we woke up so late... everyone was just lyign all over the house! --->
i couldnt think so after that i just took a cab home..
ill post the other pics in another entry.

its been to long.

yup.. its true .. iam guilty of not updating my blog as often as i hoped..oh well.. watcha gonna do?
anyway.. its been kinda hectic for me recently.. and tons of things been happening. firstly, iam not asleep yet cause weirdly enough iam not sleepy when usually iam like sound asleep by now. iam supposed to be typing away on my essay but i so cant think of anything to type about and in no mood for anything. iam supposed to hand this up on wednesday when we're( my class) supposed to go to the museum.
iam meeting eugene and possibly orrine and amanda at the mrt first. iam kinda irritated with amanda cause she hasnt been coming to school and i dont want her to fail. then first she said she will be coming but when i asked her again.. she said.."ill get back to u.. iam high in ciggs" like wtf. shes to into her guy. i mean its ok but give him some space to and get your own work done first... i have so nothing to say to her abt school anymore.. if she wants to fail.. let her. on a brighter note, sean been making an effort to do her work, eventough it was like the last week of term. yet i still appreciate it..hehehe. --->sean and amanda

but i just hope all my frens graduate to next yr so i can still be with them.. its only been like 2 days and i alreadt miss them...sheesh..whats wrong with me?!..haha.
well one thing for sure... i really feel that iam getting along better with eugen.. had a good time talking to him abt stuff...thanks for listening. the other day he came to school all emo-like..wahaha. he was kinda irritating that day though. abit nuts as well. in class he was liek disturbing us and like repeating the same thing "i hate the world today" he didnt care cause he said no matter what he knows we still liek him..hahaha.. lucky guess eugene. he even like played around with his hair in class... tied his hair to be exact ..with rubber bands!..eww.. we told him not to but he didnt care. he even went to town with us after that like that! .. oh well were from an arts school.. weve seen worst. after school.. we just hang around P.S. at starbucks that day.. kinda fun.. but corrine lost her voice so it was kinda quiet. she fell asleep so we tried to liek scare her by taking her diamond ring but.. she so has fat fingers so it didnt really work..hehehe..jkjk.
after most of them decided to leave, i accompanied sean to hereen to meet andrew and shah( wow.. not a bad name eh? hehe) both of them were nice.. i find andrew kinda cute eventhough she dresses up like a guy..haha
after that, me and sean took a bus all the way to city hall.. and walked around till we reached suntec city and had pizza by the fountain. on the way back, i was liek telling sean.."how abt u drees up like olinda?.. i can go around showing u off..hehehe" she didnt want to at first but said yes..well, she actually said maybe... i so cant wait!
well saran hasnt been coming to school either. her mom was involved in a car accident and is in icu. poor her.. but i dont see her that upset though. the last time her brother was in a motorcycle accident. her brother survied but her cousin(the driver) didnt.. scary huh. well since she hasnt been at school.. its been easier on me too cause saran dont really like corrine and corrine dosent really like her.. so i feel akward when i talk to any of them when the other is in the other room... iam worried abt how we are to do our group project to cause they are acting like this and i so dont think they will work together...just great. oh well iam to lazy to type anythign else at the moment so.. cheerio

iam so tired!!

well at home now.. kinda grateful abt that too...
yesterday after school( actually we skipped patrick's class and went town) we went to walk around here and there.. with hazel, 'jesus' (tufeer kinda pissed with him abt the religious jokes he made) and justin (bad boy life... hahaha.. i dont get it but i laugh cause its stoopid) going out with them needs alot of patience. they walk a few metres and stop some where for a fag or just to take pics. dont get me wrong its fun but after agazillion times.. u get bored with it. iam liek trying to add as many lasalle people i know to my friendster too.. trying not to make ppl think iam the snobbish sort cause i usually rush to classes as i dont get to talk to ppl along the way.
well after the whole trip with them, i went to sean's place... and let me tell u.. her house has the most amazing view!!!!! and its so windy... i just love it! it seems like u can see the whole of singapore from her living room window. .. u could even see raffles place and city hall and because i was there at night, the view was even better!
i met her cute dog.. abit 'garang' but overall its just adorable... after a few mins of tv, we set to work with our photoshop project... arrgghh.. i was so panicky!.. luckily with seans help, we called kamal who ended up crashing over as well.. he was such a great help.. i think without him i wouldnt have finished my work.. thanks again. there were like times when i felt like killing myself.. its so boring! its like the hours went by so fast.. before i knew it, it was already 5.30 am and i was on my way to the bus stop. i reached home around 7 when like kids were on the way to school. which reminds me, i wore my 'to cool for school t-shirt' that day and i couldnt have guess how much attention that got me. this lecturer came up to me and said.. "to cool for school?.. u should be ashamed of yourself".. i was liek smiling and going whatever over and over in my head... well i liked it so who cares. oh.. so after i reached home, i took a shower changed.. typed my 100 essay for the beast.. then i had to head back to school!.. i felt so weird like i was just returning home from somewhere and i have to go back to school already?! due to the lack of sleep, i was doozing of in critical studies when ling nah was teaching us abt the diff artist and played the 'girl with the pearl earring' video. after that i still doozed of after lunch in jeans class.. we did nothing but present our individual work to the class.. i think i did relatively well. oh well at least i know i wont fail. hehehe.. next week is a holiday!.. well still have to go back to school this saturday and and next wefnesday to the asian civiliasition museum to see the stuff..argh.. oh well..
p.s. iam going broke so i hope daddy remembers to send money to me.. hahaha

argh...

in my room.. iam supposed to be doing my work now but i cant seem to bring myself to do it. i only did 2 squares and i couldnt take it anymore. went out to the living room and saw my grandmom( she came here without telling anyone, so my aunt was calling everyone to check where she was. i think she got pissed abt something), and my mom alseep. so i took a curry puff and watched a couple of mins of tv before i couldnt take it anymore!..( the national day repeat broadcast was being played..eeww) now iam just staring at this stoopid screen aimlessly.
anyway.. finally uploaded some pics just now..mostly of me and my frens fooling around in class!.. i love them to bits.. i just hope they know it.. eventhough i may sound abit bossy(espicially to sean and amanda.. sorry abt that guys)

sheesh..

(this is actually written on August 12)
the only reason why iam doing this is because some ppl i know have been pestering me to write a blog so they can 'kapo' and burry their nose a little deeper in my life... thats one reason.. another is bcos i havent been doing much writing on my 'pen and paper' type of journal either. since school started, i havent really had the mood for anything.. gosh. dont get me wrong, school is a blast(even though one by one, the people in my close group of frens is falling out like flies)... but the work load is killing me! deadlines after deadlines.. its like my mind is having a mental diarreorea.. non stop worry of deadlines. and the situation at home issint helping me either...argh.. why cant 'he' just die? his distroying me!!... i swear, sometimes i feel that iam going insane... and my real dad is not much help at the moment either.. keep pestering me to call my stepmom in johor abt how we( my dad, sis and me) are going to bring his daughter, my step-sister, out this month.. i mean.. i got other things to worry abt and iam in no mood to call someone i dont even know!.. so when my dad ask me if i called, i usually make up excuses like shes not in or something like that. i mean its kinda cool to think abt it.. step brothers and sisters in the phillipines.. another one in johor...but its kinda weird for me. i mean the only reason why i even bother with my dad is because he gives me money... i know i may sound like a bastard but after 10 yrs of silence, he suddenly pops back in my life? i mean not really father material is he... i have this feeling that he realises his getting old and just in case anything happens, he wants us to take care of him.. SHEESH!
MY LIFE IS LIKE A SOAP OPERA!!!!... hahaha.i shall skip the personal, details.. iam not in the mood to remember my childhood anytime soon. Today school was not that bad.. the normal stuff happened.. saran cried (she lost her money.. kinda shocking if u asked me) gemma went all over the place (she lost her phone.. a week after i lost mine in the same class!.. i so think its someone from our class whos been stealing all the stuff.. bastard!) what abt me u ask? well.. i was minding my own busniess, tryign to make everyone happy...whatever. well after school.. i didnt know where to go cause i didnt want to go home and see my stepdad so i hung around.. here and there and then headed back to yishun to teach tution to this pri 5 girl. ( she irritates the life out of me..its liek she know bonkers!) on the walk back home, i saw a dead rat on the road with its head torn off to god knows where. the blood was like... argh!.looking on the brightside, it was actually the highlight of my day.. i mean, how often do u see a big fat rat with its head torn off?.. ahaha.. it did made me wiggle with disgust though.