damn ba damn damn damn...

another thursday but friday will be here before i know it and my damn sphere will be due for submission...damn. thank god i dont have school today. i need rest and time to finish up 'some' of my work. i havent been blogging much have i?.. havent been replying to my penpals either.. and its making me feel so guilty!..poor Lena is waiting for my letter all the way in Germany.. dont get me wrong i do want to reply her..i even wrote my letter already. its just that iam to lazy to do the whole thing and if i reply, she will reply and it will start all over.. -___-
well anyway yesterday wasnt so bad ..i guess. school was normal... critical studies was boring. there was a group presentation. the whole group was from indo.. only one of the girls could speak understandable english..hahaha. when corrine asked her a question, 'do u like impressionist artist? and why?' she replied, ' i dont like them cause i like pinish paintings' (thats what i heard)...hahaha! eugene was sitting beside me so he whispered to me, 'she likes penis paintings'.. wahahaha!...that cracked me up... i kept thinking and giggling about it all the way to lunch. eugene fell asleep in class and woke up with such a pissed off face about how fucking boring the group was..i couldnt blame him.. i was falling asleep too. corrine dozed off too...the weirdest thing is.. both of them woke up with a jerk...u know those u get when u dreamt about falling off a cliff or something..hahaha. they jerked so hard it was like they got stabbed in the waist!..hahaha.
ohohoh! i almost forgot to mention. Saran came back to school...luckily no one gave each other the look. but tension was kinda high. i had to explain to her everything thats been going on and the work she got to do. she got an extra week to go her scrapbook...damn! its like now she dosent hang around with us...she goes with Gemma and ikah(yup those girls who we called bitches long ago)...i dont think they are though..i guess?
after school as usual for these past few weeks, we went to town and hung around actually to go art friend and get our materials. didnt stay long though cause 'some' of us had to do our work. hazel hazel and lucy(mr X's half brother) came too. the girls(corrine and hazel) left first.. gave them the hollywood kiss and then only the guys were left.. gosh i swear what we talked abt was the weirdest thing ever... when the thing was over, i had words like 'cheap'..'walking herpes'..'condoms' running all over my head! u know what i mean.. secrets came out..gosh.
the truth is... the feeling in our group has changed so much!...why cant things be like the way before? it used to be just..Amanda, Corrine, Eugene, Saran and me for lunch everyday. now its Corrine+ Mr X(but corrine says to me that she wanted eden now she dosent want both..so the '+' dosent really count cause it only works one way), Eugene+ Hazel(Hazel and Eugene are confused.. E still like ex gf... H dosent want her feelings for E to grow cause if they break it will be so weird for them to be in the group), Jesus, Sean( but she hasnt been comign to school..argh another problem..i miss her..shes like my nanny..hahaha) and me. its like all of them are so into themselves and i feel left out?! i dunno it feels different. and there are extra people who want to be in the group like.. Tufeer and jerry. they are nice but are kind of different from what we are.
i still ike hanging wround with them but its not the same..damn
actually i got tons of other things i want to say.. but i guess this entry is long enough as it is.. so..Cherrio