i went to heaven and hell in a day...

my head is kinda clear today surprisingly...was kinda afraid to eat anything after what happened yesterday..so just spent the whole day at my cuz's place.
well tuesday after school, me and my frens decided to hang out around town since school is no near and we didnt want to go home so early.. ended up at starbucks at wheelock place. marcus came as well.. kinda happy to see him eventhough i felt bad that i didnt take the bus home with him when he asked me to. well thats when they decided to go to eugens place the next day to drink.. i should have known better.
i was supposed to have school yesterday but since my lecturer went to Indonesia, morning lessons was cancelled and i saw no point in going for the 1hr afternoon session, and to make things worse it was critical studies...all those boring art history..so i made up my mind and head off to eugene's place instead. went off per normal left the house with my mom.. she thinking that i was heading for school and there i was having my mind set on something else. i was supposed to meet my miss hazel at the bus stop outside P.S. at 9a.m. as promised.. but when i called her, she was still at home.. grr! so i headed off to eugens place myself.. found out sean slept over at his place.. at least i know she wont be late for once. hazel came much later... thats when eugene made us teh drinks.. i took quite aot.. didnt feel the highness at all so i took more. hazel was already gone to her wonderland. for me the feeling came very suddenly.. before i knew it, i was dancing with her in the room to the music.. sheesh. happy happy huh.. jesus came later too.. i rememebered drinking more when jesus offered me when i was already drunk.. i shouldnt have.. that drink must be damn strong since it was meant for him.. and he is the crazee sort.
i remembered seeing hazel with her shirt off.. and sean trying to pull it back on her. i remembered hazel slapping me at the stairs when they were smoking.. and me returning her the slap. i remembered being carried by jesus back into the house and going nuts all over again. hazel pukes all over the the floor infront of the toilet.. i guess it must have hit eugene too cause i remembered seeing him with his shirt off. i puked later.. and it didnt stop..damn the hell was starting to take over me. i sat and literally dozed off in teh toilet.. hugging the toilet bowl. i couldnt put my head back cause i would have slipped and fall back onto the floor so i put my head to the front.. i know it sounds gross but let me tell u it wouldnt matter if your so fuckign drunk. when i came out.. i sat in teh living room.. with a big red bucket beside me. eugne was beign a good friend.. he was teh one who cleaned me up and threw my vomit.. at this moment on.. i think i readlly do owe him. he even made tea and carried it to my lips... i still cant belive i made him call my sis to bring me home. he packed my stuff and waited for my sis to reach under his block. steven was tehre to. when my sis helped me to the cab, steven raised his voice at eugene askign him if we were having some party.. i got kinda pissed to i shouted from the door to ask eugene to go home. eugene if u are reading this..iam so sorry for the mess i dragged u into... haiz. in the cab.. steven was talkign as if he was someone inportant.. i really did feel liek slapping him!.. ahh..
i got home.. sadly my mom was at home to.. i put my bag down .. and headed straight to the loo.. i puked two more mouthfuls.. thats when i panicked.. i was puking and i felt liek my dick was gonna explode... so weirdly enough i stood up with vomit dripping from my mouth into the toilet bowl while i peeded.. gross huh. oh well.. then without looking at my mom's face i went straight to my room. i didnt dare ipen the room and let her see me liek this when she knocked and forced me to open the door. i felt so guilty. i guess i needed this to really slap me int he face.. to make me realise that what iam doing is so wrong... just thankfully today my head issint has bad. oh well.. thats it. till next time